Monday

It kind of worries me how good I am feeling right now. I cannot and do not believe that admitting that I am depressed was what was needed to get over it. It seems too simple, too easy. But I feel so much better since I did. It makes me wonder, could it be that easy ? Like admitting something means letting go of the guilt, the anger, the pain. That easy ?

I am going to stop obsessing about it and just enjoy this beautiful but cold day. Most of the kids are in school right now. DS#1 is home, he has a nasty cold. His cough is horrible and he only wants to eat warm meals. I am going to have him work on his math skills in between resting. DS#4 sure is happy to have his biggest brother home, even though he has started coughing also. Ah,the joys of a large family, we feel the need to share everything, especially the sick bugs :p

I have big plans for today, even if I keep telling myself to keep it simple. Besides the usual, I want to wash, cut and freeze peppers. I want to prepare a big pot of spaghetti sauce (dinner !!), a banana cake, some banana muffins, and banana pancakes (lots of bananas to use up), maybe some peach muffins also. I guess I bought too much fruits. Which is fine, what the kids do not eat, I end up using in recipes. So, no waste.

I have some phone calls to make, like an appointment at the dentist for myself, calling the specialist about DS#3, calling my lawyer, ... And I want to do more renos around the house. I need to get the kitchen back in order, and that includes the dining room. A little bit of paint, sanding & painting the recipe book bookcase, throwing out the old fridge and installing the *new* one, cutting and installing the things around the windows and doors, installing the curtains, the painting, the dish cabinet, ... Maybe I can separate this in five days so it does not seem like too much. A little everyday, with giving myself plenty of time to rest, read, write and exercise. And spend quality time with my little one. My last baby at home. His last year at home. My last year as a stay at home mom.